Some days ago I decided that my New Year's Resolution was to give up Facebook for a year. I posted this information on Facebook for everyone to see and to see how many would want to stay in contact over the coming year. It was surprising the people who asked to stay in touch via What's App, text, email etc and surprising those who didn't.
So Day 1 and I still have to deactivate my account. In my defence, I am trying to sell some Babywearing wraps and have one interested party. I am going to contact her today and see if she is happy to deal with me without FB and if not, deactivation will actually commence on Jan 4th at some point.
So, what lead me to this resolution. Well, my older children had been asking me for some time not to post pictures of them on FB so I complied. Then when I was asking the to stay off their Ipad's they told me I spent too much time on Facebook and that's when it hit me. I complain I have no time to do my sewing, knitting, house decorating, cooking etc, not time to play with my children, but I have plenty of time for Facebook.
Keeping up with friends lives is exhausting. I feel my children are always lacking because there is always someone posting about having a fabulous meal out, a fantastic evening at the cinema a fun walk, lovely family time. I started feeling inadequate and jealous whilst reading these posts. Everyone was reading such fantastic lives and I was stuck at home, on Faecebook, reading about them.
2016 is my way of showing myself and my children that we have plenty of time. We can make memories together, we can go out and have fun and I won't be tied to my phone or laptop checking status updates and seeing what everyone else is doing that I'm not.
I am going to keep a diary of everything we do throughout this year, something for me to look back on and something to show my gorgeous children at the end of the year. If you want to read it then that's great, but this is my record of 2016.
Friday 1 January 2016
Sunday 4 October 2015
Hospital again ...
So having found blogging I stopped. Not sure why as it was cathartic. I come back as my mum is in hospital again but having had that baby I was longing for and having had a a girl. She is nearly three. Where does the time go.
My mum is in hospital having burnt her eye on her over which seems to make a lot of steam. Her eye became infected and she had sepsis as well. Not good, but having had 10 days of antibiotics the infection abated and she now has conjunctivitis. She is very depressed. I thought we'd left 2013 behind us and she was if not back to her normal self, a variation of it. She isn't eating, hasn't drink much and is in danger of acute kidney failure. Why would you do that to your self. She has tow daughters and 6 grandchildren all of who love her very much, but she has no care in for this and is content to not want to do anything. I do hope I'm not like her when I get to her age.
My mum is in hospital having burnt her eye on her over which seems to make a lot of steam. Her eye became infected and she had sepsis as well. Not good, but having had 10 days of antibiotics the infection abated and she now has conjunctivitis. She is very depressed. I thought we'd left 2013 behind us and she was if not back to her normal self, a variation of it. She isn't eating, hasn't drink much and is in danger of acute kidney failure. Why would you do that to your self. She has tow daughters and 6 grandchildren all of who love her very much, but she has no care in for this and is content to not want to do anything. I do hope I'm not like her when I get to her age.
Sunday 18 September 2011
X Factor
I cant believe that X Factor auditions have finished tonight. Makes me feel like Autumn is over and Winter well and truly here.
Have spent the last few days in despair, I do feel well and truly depressed. DS1 is at school. DS2 is at playgroup and pre-school and loves it. No one needs me anymore and I want another baby. This does not seem to be happening for us. Partly as DH has low motility, but also due to my irregular periods. I also have another contributing facto in that I turn 40 in a week and a half. Not good all round. I am also stuggling with my emotions. The slightest thing makes me cry. Currently watching Downton Abbey, it's only just started and I'm crying.
On a high note, we were driving past field with hay bales in yesterday and DS2 said "ooh, cows eat weetbix"!
Have spent the last few days in despair, I do feel well and truly depressed. DS1 is at school. DS2 is at playgroup and pre-school and loves it. No one needs me anymore and I want another baby. This does not seem to be happening for us. Partly as DH has low motility, but also due to my irregular periods. I also have another contributing facto in that I turn 40 in a week and a half. Not good all round. I am also stuggling with my emotions. The slightest thing makes me cry. Currently watching Downton Abbey, it's only just started and I'm crying.
On a high note, we were driving past field with hay bales in yesterday and DS2 said "ooh, cows eat weetbix"!
Saturday 4 June 2011
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