X Factor

I cant believe that X Factor auditions have finished tonight.  Makes me feel like Autumn is over and Winter well and truly here.

Have spent the last few days in despair, I do feel well and truly depressed.  DS1 is at school. DS2 is at playgroup and pre-school and loves it.  No one needs me anymore and I want another baby.  This does not seem to be happening for us.  Partly as DH has low motility, but also due to my irregular periods.  I also have another contributing facto in that I turn 40 in a week and a half.  Not good all round.  I am also stuggling with my emotions.  The slightest thing makes me cry.  Currently watching Downton Abbey, it's only just started and I'm crying.

On a high note, we were driving past field with hay bales in yesterday and DS2 said "ooh, cows eat weetbix"!