X Factor

I cant believe that X Factor auditions have finished tonight.  Makes me feel like Autumn is over and Winter well and truly here.

Have spent the last few days in despair, I do feel well and truly depressed.  DS1 is at school. DS2 is at playgroup and pre-school and loves it.  No one needs me anymore and I want another baby.  This does not seem to be happening for us.  Partly as DH has low motility, but also due to my irregular periods.  I also have another contributing facto in that I turn 40 in a week and a half.  Not good all round.  I am also stuggling with my emotions.  The slightest thing makes me cry.  Currently watching Downton Abbey, it's only just started and I'm crying.

On a high note, we were driving past field with hay bales in yesterday and DS2 said "ooh, cows eat weetbix"!

Only one can win £100,000 and place on Royal VarietyPerformance

3rd pace New Bounce

2nd Place Ronan

1st Place Jai

I had places wrong -thought Ronan would win being a child!

Jean in 10th
Les in 9th
James in 8th
Steven in7th
Paul in 6th
Michael in 5th
Razy in 4th
Britains got Talent finalists - Yeah!

Must be feeling old.  It can't be right that a song in the charts makes me feel dirty.  Nicole Scherzinger (sp) on Britains Got Talent - just a bit too much for me????

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Am not sure I am making myself clear.  I feel Mylene Klass has it all and lets us know it.  She make me feel I am failing.  She has two children, a full time job and no nanny.  I have two children, no full time job and couldn't contemplate a nanny as what would I do with myself otherwise.  Despite that, why do I always feel lacking.

Shouldn't have found blogging.  Feel I am now addicted and will never stop.

I just love Mylene Klass - Fount of all Knowledge and maker of inferior parents!

4th June - cont..

8.45pm - DD2 has just woken up after falling asleep at 4.30pm!  I know, we should have woken him, but it appeared he was not for waking.  Now he is not for sleeping.  First time we have ever done that and it will be the last!

He is now enjoying adverts during Britains Got Talent and giving a running commentary.  He is also in danger of knocking my wine over.  He is also full of questions - more so than first thing in the morning. Not sure now we will be making out 10 am visit to friends tomorrow.

June 4th

We (I shall cahnge that to I), spent most of today watching the Isle of Man TT races.  I (me) took the boys to the park.  I did manage to catch the first of the sidecars go past, but due to the fact the DS2 doesn't like the noise, that was all. 

DS2 fell asleep on the way home from Nanas and is still asleep.  I managed to get him in bed with nappy on without waking up.  He will probably wake up about 2am and demand his tea.  DS1 is currently asking for Buttercup to be warmed up but it's way too hot.

I was nearly able to watch Doctor Who without interruption until DS1 decided he was hungry and then conducted a conversation with DH about what food options were available.  And DS1 complains when you interrupt CBeebies with a response to a food request!

Tomorrow, we are all going to see a friends New Baby.  We are already concerned that both boys are going to misbehave so our time there will be brief!